so.. im going home ! only for three weeks tho.. im going to see ENGLAND play...heck yeh you have noo freaking idea how excited i am. MY TONGUE.. which i had pierced two weeks ago.. finally doesnt hurt anymore... waho.. lol.. ENGLAND BEAT CROATIA 4 -2 it was suck a fantastic game! i went jet skiing yesterday..lol.. got a little burnt too.. ahh well.. a nice tan before i go back. i must admit.. im glad ashley IMed me and sed sorry for the way she kicked off a couple of weeks ago.. she seems  pretty kool in my book. look everyone has a problem with what ai apparently sed, but all i sed was the truth and people may think i over exaggerated it, but hey thats thier opinion, i have loyalties to about 5 people in this world, and i dont need to not tell the truth because you think i have some kind of loyalty to you. but anyway  dani and nick forever and ever and ever and ever! lol.. hannah and matthew... well we will see.. lol.. he is on a business trip in england for 3 months soo im going to go see him and my bro ofcourse. hmmmmm.. hey mikey.. i love God.. .do you?? HA HA HA ... you know who doenst.... lol!! cant be dealin with this crap.. LIVE IT UP.?? LIVE IT UP?  as i recall me and danielle sed that from the very beginning but sum people had to get more and more involved..watever.
im dun! going home to sane people.. leaving a few sane peeps behind...gotta go pack....

well for the past three days and nights i have worked.. i have worked 14 hours a day.... and i am exausted... i wokr again tonite and im at work right now... i miss my bro!! argh! i keep changing my mind i dont know what to do .. should  i go home and visit for a week? or do i not have time?? i think that i will go hom if ENGLAND make it to the semi finals for the euro 2006... ( a really biiiggg soccer thing kind of like the world cup but just in europe) I LOVE ME A GAME OF SOCCER!  i got all my new stuff for my car and i got it put in ... im just waitng on my rims... swweeeett!! lol.. well i gota go.. i m suppose to be working !! lol..bye

holy cow! it has been  a very VERY long time since i wrote in this thing.. too much on my mind.  anyway lots has happened .. i started hanging with danielle a lil while ago and its strage to see what good friends we have become.  anyway... yeh sum people are starting shit that they shudnt andthen they get all their friends involved like she cant handle her ouw problems...ya.. reeeaaalll mature...ANYWAY... back on to a GOOD note.. im really happy rite now.. got sum real good friends... sum i know i can trust.. im working all freaking summer... way too much work.. i went to church..its weird how u feel different towards people once you kinda wise up... i fell in love... lol... well not literally.. i have enver felt this way about sumone in my entire life.. ya have those pathetic crushes in which you think that u really like them.. and then u relaize that was just BS.. but no.. i am so glad i have him... he makes me soo happy.. :o)))) he will remain nameless jus cos people will read this and think that they know him.. and try and find out about him and shit... well he is 25.. and ya dont know anything! ha ha ha ! lol... well i gotta go to a car meetingrite about now.. soo.. there is the update....
and D .... LMAO... woooot wooooot!

hello! its saturday and im in the middle of watchin "love dont cost a thing"..lol.. its okay i guess..OKAY so was soo stressed out yesterday..more than i have been in a while...it sucked lol.. but then i got hamlet for my oral commentary and i started like gettin choked up.. and i was soo close to crying. i was sooo amd .. i mean i knew everything about it .. but i wanted poetry soo bad.. but oh well...... so i did the best i could with the material.. even tho i did pronounce the name wrong.. although it doesnt bother me cos its all done with now. and i cant go back. so yah.. iwas pretty bummed too cos one of my closest friends was soo upset and i wasnt able to do anything at that time.. it was breakin my heart.. she is such a good kid and she doesnt deserve it at all.. i went to work last nite ands i made $130 dollars... isnt that kool??? i was like holy cow!!!lol.. plus these insanely hott guys came in and this one guy steven.. oh my GOODNESS he was soo freakin hot.. his dad knows my dad .. and apparently does business with him and is comin to see me on tuesday when i work :oD!!!! YESS!! lol.. then this one guy who has been in the desert fighting for 9 months fighting a war .. it was soo funny he came up to me and smelt my hair!!! FREAK! and i touched his arm and kinda stroked it but not really if ya get what i mean.. and he is like dont do that..please.. ur guna turn me on.. i was OOOKAYY... PEACE OUT ! ...jeka, freddy eli candice whitey lilly brady and christy are all goin to Prom... they better keep that prom promise..lol.. im getting neons in two weeks now.. NICK SUCKS.. lol.. jk... ow well at least im gettin 'em...jsta few weks after i planned.. i wonder who won the gateway/osceola baseball game...okay well i mguna go.. im tired... again. guna go see jeka get ready for PROM in alil bit woot woot.... ok... peace...love.. happiness...

well it has been a long time since i have written a journal guys but in guna try again! why not eh.. okay soooo today i went in to school late cos i was studying for plath and stevens..my huge oral commentary on whomever miss Billington decides to pull out of the pile is tomorrow... yes ladies and gentlemen i am peeing my pants... i mean i know the material.. but ..do i know enough? that is the question.. but yah i went after schoo land got lots of help so.. im happy.. :o) ... my back hurts .. it has beeen hurting but its all good.. i just crack back in place !! lol.. i joined the YMCA.. it is soo much fun they have all these classes and stuff ..hip hop class...areobics... its kool... so my life is lookin up.. it has  been pretty bleek the last omonth but things have been getting better week by week.. im still working.. and my family is doing better... my brother is doing better... i miss him sooo much ..my heart sinks everytime i think about how we used to be soo close and now. we jsut arent the same.. i mean we still have that amazing connection and he is stil my best friend..but its soo hard . .now that he has a wife and his job.. i keep getting pushed to the bottom of the pile... it breaks my heart..and u know what else sucks? the fac that everyone is growing up.. and i hate it ... my little .. "LITTLE" sister will be 13 this year.. My big sister jsuted turned 24 my other big sister is going to be 21 and im guna 18....dan is guna be 28.. all i thin kabout is when we all used to paly in the pool together and push each other down and play WWF infront of the TV... now... everyone is engaged (cept me ans liz) and all grown up.. al my friends are growin up too...jen mil abby kt... all going to uni.. anyway.. lol.. im soo happy for Jess and Freddy... Manda and Blake.. they are soo happy its soo good that they have boyfriends..it just sucks cos i want one! lol... noo i dont .... i mean i like sumone yeah.. i always like SOMEONE.. lol... but im in no rush..God will guide me and makes sure i dont get hurt... last time i rushed into a relationship ( Jan) it most definitley did NOT work out.. and relationship before that.. well that is the only relationship thati have ever really wished never happened.. plus he is a lying sack of crap... but ANYWAY..LOL ... holy crap its 4 20.. i ahve to get back to hamlet.... i love all my friends.. and my family... and my extended family.. im glad u are apart of who i am .. and will be... peace oooouuutt... i promise my next entry will be alot happier :o) .. lol..